back to the 90s

ive been listening to oldies lately, addicted to boyzone's all that i need and britney spears' lucky. i really miss these kind of songs. with a good set of lyrics accompanied by a melodious tune. i think the 90s really make good wedding and love songs. :) wonder which 1 i will use when i get married. Maybe This I Promise You by N'Sync. haha. I used to have this promise to myself that I will try not to break any promises which i sincerely make. Especially 1 to my girlfriend in future, or my close friends. I think keeping promises are something that reflects your character. It shows that you take responsibility of what you have said. I also used to think that I would never lie to someone I truly love. But through past experiences, sometimes, its always good to tell a white lie when the time arises. It does more good than harm. While listening to Lucky, i realised it describes my ex dam well, its like the whole song reflects her life. but well im over her already. so there isnt anything to talk about. haha.

friday is my next orientation camp, with very few girls sadly. cant expect much from mechanical engineering. but its always good to make new friends. and i love orientation games. XI NIU NAI ftw. haha. Im quite good with names too, give me about 10 minutes and i can match almost every1's names to their faces. haha. but thats if majority of them have christian names. Chinese names are a pain to remember. lol.

oh yes i ran 10km today. YES IM DAM PROUD OF MYSELF though my legs are aching like no tomorrow now. but its all worth it. dunno if i will be able to run tomorrow. haha. sian wanted to go prawning but jiaqi has to have tuition in the morning and afternoon. MISSED THE CHANCE TO ASK HER OUT. awwwwwwww. but ppl who know me know i dun give up. HAHA. i seriously hope she doesnt visit my blog or knows my blog URL. things might change and im scared they would. haha. i really dunno we chatted about quite alot of stuff and some sensitive issues too. but somehow sometimes i feel it sometimes i dont. IM REALLY DAM CONFUSED NOW. lol. wondering what should be my nxt step. cant she jus gimme like a clear signal. LOL. its so dam hazy now. haha. i hate diffusing smoke. though i do throw alot myself. haha. ok this is dam explicit. she will know everything if she visits this place. LOL.

mann ive got a headache now thanks to lilong. asking me to play 1 more sc2 game.. zzzzz.. that was the limit. nonetheless, i still played like a master league terran. (top 2% of players in SEA ok!!!) :) carried the team in most of the games we played. except for the 1 which i got harassed like no tomorrow. haha. 4v4 is really a lame matchup. but well ive played alot lesser nowadays and im happy about it. first step to quitting gaming.

im still wondering if i should go for engin rag dance practice on thursday. i dun even think i can dance well nonetheless dance for engine. aye. depending on my mood i guess. dun really know alot of ppl who are going down as well. might jus give it a go i guess. afterall there's nothing much to do at home. im still waiting for jiaqi to reply me. haha. sian i see myself waiting for her replies. that is obviously a sign that im into her. mayb im jus thinking too much and it was all one-sided all along. lol. mann i hate this feeling. its like you're being left hanging on a thread. but well. love is a bitch. it makes u feel like shit when its not being reciprocated.

sian tomorrow is wednesday. and ive totally got nothing to do. I want to go out with john and weiyang but they are all overseas. dammit. i think they're like my only other group of close friends other than my gay bro SAM and his group of hwachong friends. i dun have many close ac friends sadly. sometimes i hate going out with zhi wei, cheong and that group of ppl. they tend to induce the vulgar side in me. totally becoming a different person, and they are always scanning at girls. i hate it when they jus go CHIO BU CHIO BU and all start staring at glancing around. its very barbaric behavior which makes me feel that they are still childish and not mature yet. mature ppl dun act like this of course. mayb thats why i didnt go meet them at city hall today. firstly i dun really like hanging out with them cos of that reason, secondly i dun really know praveen kumar at all. MANN I NEED PPL TO JIO ME OUT. if nt i will die and rot at home till friday. zzzzz.. hate it when ive got nth planned on the nxt day. its like a whole day wasted doing nothing.

i think i will end my post here. nothing to do now AGAIN. zzz jiaqi still hasnt replied. haha. im so bored that im actually waiting for her to reply. HAHA. and i dun wanna starcraft. and ive got that splitting headache which is killing me.