lazy

gosh.. i haven blogged in ages. i think there's a phone somewhere in my iphone, typed that in union camp if im not wrong. haha. been very busy lately and couldnt bring myself to blog about stuff. haha. i think rag ppl are amazing. a bunch of happening ppl. haha. too bad there's no space for me. but i feel dam paiseh there also la. still cant really get the basics right. nt enough practice i guess. lol. have to go down to NUS tmr to matriculate. though i dun have any forms AT ALL. jus have to wait till im able to access the forms then. stupid NUS so cock up. ive got so much to blog about but im so dam bloody lazy. lol. i think i will blog them as im on the move or when im feeling bored. there's like clubbing, cheer, rag, UC og outing, and also things with jiaqi has gotten beyond weird. it feels the same as jennifer. DOOSHITE! hai.. but whatever la seriously. i thought she was different. I was wrong. GIRLS ARE ALL THE SAME. sigh. bad bad bad.. mazui mazui mazui!! nvm. i think i will blog about all this stuff some other time. im so freaking busy this whole week. almost out the whole day everyday. i hope nxt week will be much better. haha. and i still have ninhongo no lesson tmr. zzz. i think i should go sleep now. oh i almost forgotten to reply that i want to be in double major. haha. better go do it now.. :)

the 2nd dorky outing!

Yesterday's og outing was quite a successful one. With many ppl turning up. I think there were at least 11-12 ppl?? I think henry is an awesome person. A must have at all outings. Our og suddenly changed into chinese mode yesterday. Mayb cos usha wasnt there. Haha. I love conversing in chinese. I think its more engaging then english. English is a too formal language. Im dam happy that i can converse in both quite perfectly. Alot of ppl said i look and sound ang moh pai. Haha. Its the ac influence la. I think ac boys are steoreotyed as potatoes. But that is true. Haha. Im 1 of the rare ones that can use both to converse.

Henry's OH MY is bloody addictive. Like seriously. Hahaha. But he's a gd chap la. Kinda like my type who jus cracks jokes everytime. Haha. First time mingling with andric too. I think our og needs more ppl like them. Haha. I think i will make a dam awesome ogl though. :)

We had dinner and swensens and sadly no 1 wanted desserts and there goes my craving for apple crumble. Din really manage to talk to jiaqi. She was talking to yinchee most of the time and i guess i was just at the wrong side of the table. Haha. But i had a good talk with henry that joker. Talking cock all the time. Haha.

Then came HTHT. Jiaqi had to say she wants to marry me from shoot shag marry. Zzzzz. Always giving me hope. Fuck. Haha. But i really think we shld jus remain as friends. She says im nice to talk to but she never does initiate any conversations with me face to face. Wtf?? Maybe she's shy or when you like someone you dun actually go up and talk to that person right. I really dunno. Girls are something i try my best to understand but the more you know about them, the less you think you know them. Too paradoxical. I cant wait for union camp to explore more of the forest. Haha.

I shared stuff bout celeste yesterday. Saying how far i got with her. Haha. Mannn i hope that doesnt ruin my image in jiaqi's eyes. But whatever seriously. We're just friends right. I dun give a shit liao. Sian. I kinda wait for her replies. Living a sad an emo life now. UNION CAMP PLS GIVE ME A GD OG. I really hope n pray my og is lively. Where every1 is enthu. Where the girls are hot and chio and engaging
Girls who just stick among girls are zzzzz. As an ac boy, it is my duty to step up and provide life into the OG. hahaha. Im proud to be an ac boy. Cos we are badass, smart, hot and everything good. Hahaha. Call me egoistic but i dun care. Facts are facts. :P

the rant post

my student is quite cmi. i dunno how to teach him at all. he forgets his basics, he doesnt want to practice. he makes careless mistakes like hell. he mixes up simple algebra. he writes down things wrongly all the time. and sometimes it confuses me too. sian. i am really at a loss. i went for tuition today, feeling tired and sleepy and jus sitting there watching him do math. i feel quite bad doing that but i didnt really have anything to do. some of the questions are so simple that i can do them in my head. i must admit some are harder. and doing them at lightning speed causes me to get many careless mistakes too. it was a dam boring lesson today. i think im on the verge of giving up. i hate it when ppl dun put in effort when they know they are weak in something. for me, i gave up in bio cos i knew that i would score well for the rest of my subjects. but his case is totally different. when u are weak in everything, u really have to buck up. sigh. i really hope he doesnt fail his end years and get retained. seriously retaining?!? WTF is the only word to describe that. never in my life had i gotten a warning letter no matter whether i study or not. lucky for me i can get by with minimal studying cos i listen attentively in class. when i listen in class, half the battle is won. all the concepts jus flows into my head and all i need is jus a little touching up. thank God for this skill.

now onto engincamp OG outing. Im quite sick and tired of organising already. some ppl dun reply at all, it feels as though no 1 gives a fuck about it. yea. im really quite pissed about it already. i think this might be the last time im organising it already. whether we meet up again is up to the rest of the guys. seriously. if u all dun wanna meet so be it. im not gonna force any1. im nt even gonna offer my help to organise the next outing. u all can do the work but i promise i will reply. i know how it feels like when u put in so much effort and ppl cant even tell you whether they can make it or not its bloody frustrating. sigh. sucks when u are the only enthu 1 in the OG when the rest dun even care whether u live or die. fuck this. well for now, let's jus hope everything goes well on saturday. im nt having any high expectations anymore. ive given up. i seriously hope my union camp OG will have much better ppl, ppl who actually want to meet up and do stuff together. nt jus hi and bye for 4 days 3 nights kind of ppl. i think my mech engine OG has abit of hope. but things arent looking too good at the moment too. only kaiming me arjun, jing yu and clara are actually engaging in online convos. sigh.

mann. she took a total of 10 hours to reply. well i cant say much. afterall im jus a friend. i am not having any hopes too but really 10 hours? i know she's nice but 10 hours really dun cut it mann. i can even reply during my orientation camp whats going out for the whole day. mayb i guess when u are not interested in some1 that happens no matter how close you are. mayb i work differently, i kinda feel frustrated when some1 doesnt reply. its like u made an effort to talk to them and they dun even care to reply, thats why sometimes i hate always to have to initiate convos. it feels as if u arent wanted. and if u dun actually initiate that person will never talk to u. sad life isnt it. but that is life. but its alright, its time to move on samuel. Time to move on.

gosh this whole blog post is just ranting about stuff that is frustrating me right now. fuck mann seriously. i hate it. haven used so much f-words in a long while. feels good to rant it all out at once to a blog, somewhere where ppl wouldnt read except myself. i have jap class again tmr. and im dam shag from it. 3 HOURS and the lessons are getting so difficult. its dam bloody hard to understand now. moreover vincent wun be there to too. learning alone really sucks. no 1 to talk to. the only time i will be meeting him will be 2 weeks from now cos of union camp. and talking bout that. i will be missing harry potter's premiere due to union camp too. fuck. that's 1 premiere i was hoping they would have and now that it is there i cant go. dammit..

i guess there's enough for ranting today. haven ranted in a long while. it really feels good to get everything off your chest. its like FUCK YEAH!!! and i found a new form of exercise. i din know skipping can get so tiring. its really quite cardio intensive. haha.

and so the cat is out of the bag

haha. and so the truth is out. i think it was kinda expected i guess. spider senses tingling. :P but well its worth a shot at least and to get this bugging feeling off my chest. i was talking to chew the other day and we both agreed there was nothing to lose anyway. she was never mine in the first place. i still think we will be good friends though. but all of that is still too early to say. haha. i think she's obviously not looking for relationships as she said. haha. and i do agree with her. so young and so untender. (jus a random quote from king lear) haha.

but we did have a good 3 and a half hour chat. LOL! i really do think we will make a good couple. we can really click quite well and talk about anything under the sun. haha. but whats yours is yours la. probably the time isn't right or whatever. we jus have to wait and see. oh i got a call from union camp yesterday. imba happy. i think its 1 of the camps that i was looking forward to. dam sadly i didnt get the spot. but actually i got it but just that they didnt call me up. zzzz. meeting new friends again! jus loving it. haha. i love making friends. study partners, chilling partners. talk cock buddy. and finding ppl that click with you is best.

mech engine camp!!

i went for ME camp knowing that their will be very few girls.. what shocked me was that there were only 12-15 girls!! definitely less than 20. haha. its ME so what can u expect. :P

Day 1

My OG is 1 of the OGs without any girls. haha. 8 guys in total. guys and guys tend to bond easily. but i think the army talk was abit overwhelming. but what to do, 2 of the guys extended ORD so they have quite alot to talk about. and i think they joined as a group too. haha. i remembered i mentioned that i was good with names. im happy to say that i tried it and i managed to remember the names of almost every in the OG and also most of them in the house. around 20 names. am i good or what. haha. we played the name game and naturally people keep calling me since i have the easiest name. but pro me is able to call some1 elses name before they can deal enough damage to me. but i still got bruises on my thighs thanks to jing yu's hard hitting. i swear she hits dam bloody hard. haha. the wet games were quite fun, definitely much dirtier than those in engincamp. we were permanently wet and the games were much rougher. haha. prolly suiting the OG which i was in since we were all guys and more sporty ppl! compared to the nerdy MR dorky. HAHA.

moving on, lets skip to mass dance and blind night. mass dance was really really hard. dancing to party rock anthem is not easy. shuffling is freaking freaking hard and needs some skill and natural talent to be able to do that. i personally feel that it isnt 1 of the best songs to be used for mass dance too high of a difficulty for normal folks like me to do. haha. blind night was ok. but it was too long! LOL. being blindfolded for about 3 hours is really too long.. :P and with minimal talking unlike SP things started to get abit boring. but i think the last slide was fun though. haha. quite well thought out.

day 2

pool games and mystery night. pool games were fun. we won almost every game except 1. haha! pro desu ne. the crashers came to tell us how to dunk ppl and how to hunt for jobs to get the camp comm dunked. it was really quite interesting. and there was this station where i had to wear 3 shirts, a pair of jeans, a skirt and a bra. yea unglam max but it was an experience.. :P always wanted to try out how a bra feels like BUT NEVER IN THIS WAY. hahahaha. gosh i think ppl who see my blog would think im some sick freak. hahaha. mystery night was quite fail. nt really very scary. haha. but the effort was there la. haha.

day 3

sentosa is always fun! love the sand and the water. and the dunking of course! haha. i think this camp i was more enthu, leading the cheers more since i know most of them. haha. i think all my campmates are first timers in orientation camp since none of them went for engin camp.

i love camps so much that im going for 4! many many friends to come. haha. union camp and o-week to go! cant wait for those camps to come now.. haha.. fun fun fun and prolly girls girls girls? haha.. despo boy.. :P at least this time i will some ac ppl there now. bloody engineering has no ac ppl. haha. but i was asking around and mech engin doesnt have alot of elite school ppl. most of them from ok schools. nt the imba type like hwa chong or rj. hopefully the stress isnt that high unlike chemical engineering. big fish in a small pond. time to kick some asses with my brain. :)

just stop thinking

haha.. i cant stop thinking. i dunno if its a good or bad thing. but yea i do think too much. dun really like it. life is much simpler when u just dont think. jiaqi was telling me she thinks too much too. hmm. i dunno what happen to her in the past but i guess it must have been some guy kinda screwed up her life. i haven been successful in asking her out. i dunno if she's being hard to get or there simply is nothing going on. LOL. see samuel, thinking too much again. haha. i think i have a gift for reading ppl, just like my mum. i can tell the personality of a person from the subtle things they do. and also what they mean from their small little actions or even in the way of how the reply messages. but the thing with jiaqi is. I CANT READ HER OMG. sometimes she feels dam nice and caring, but sometimes, especially during the day she just seems to reply dam slowly and nt really giving a shit. haha. mann i jus hate it when i cant read ppl. mayb im like twilight'shaha.. i cant stop thinking. i dunno if its a good or bad thing. but yea i do think too much. dun really like it. life is much simpler when u just dont think. jiaqi was telling me she thinks too much too. hmm. i dunno what happen to her in the past but i guess it must have been some guy kinda screwed up her life. i haven been successful in asking her out. i dunno if she's being hard to get or there simply is nothing going on. LOL. see samuel, thinking too much again. haha. i think i have a gift for reading ppl, just like my mum. i can tell the personality of a person from the subtle things they do. and also what they mean from their small little actions or even in the way of how the reply messages. but the thing with jiaqi is. I CANT READ HER OMG. sometimes she feels dam nice and caring, but sometimes, especially during the day she just seems to reply dam slowly and nt really giving a shit. haha. mann i jus hate it when i cant read ppl. mayb im like twilight's edward. sian mayb i shld jus dao and forget about her. it sucks to be the 1 initiating all the time. but easier said than done. nevertheless some things jus HAVE TO BE DONE.

blogger is giving me problems. cant frigging login via firefox. i have no idea whats happening to it too. now im using IE to actually login. sth which i haven used in months. tomorrow is mechanical engineering freshmen camp. dam lazy to pack for it. and i dun have sunblock. cant believe i forgot to buy it yesterday when i was at bukit panjang plaza. mayb i shld take a walk to limbang or yewtee to buy it later. i love taking walks. i think walking provides me with the time for me to really be alone, gives me time to think about what im gonna do, gives me time to reflect about life. lol. sometimes i think im too mature for my age. which isnt good at all.

today was a crap morning. first i forget to turn off my lights b4 i went to sleep, that kinda screwed my sleep for about 2-3 hours. had to wake up at 5 to turn it off. then zhi wei had to call me and ask me if i wanted to go out. i told him 'see first' which is my form of a 'no'.

this post is way overdue thanks to blogger keep screwing up.. zzzz.. im too lazy to continue it. i'll jus post whatever ive typed. :)