Is it true that all of us have something hidden inside that we don't want others to find out? Like a kind of hidden personality within all of us, a side that we do not want to portray to others, a darker side in other words. As the saying goes, never judge a book by its cover. What you see on the outside may not be what you get on the inside.
Inner Darkness is something you don't just show to anyone, even family members. Most of the time they are only revealed to people who are really close to you, people whom you know you can trust, people you know who makes an impact to your life. This is especially true when you are in a relationship with someone. maybe this is how the term 'true colours' came to exist.
I tend to cherish friends who have already showed me 'the other side' of them. I feel that it brings our friendship to another level since what we see in each other is not just a facade that is portrayed to everyone else. It goes again to show that they're able to trust you with their secrets and things that they do not want to share with other. I hope they feel the same way too.
All in all, inner darkness is something that each and everyone possesses. The reason why we do not reveal them to others is simple: not everyone would be comfortable with our inner darkness and therefore we are afraid to show them to others as there is a possibility that friendships may be compromised and that others may not like the darker side of us.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
A Story Of Us
This is A Story Of Us, how I always thought we are going to be Forever and Always. Our Love Story was one that was meant to be Long Lived. How did it turn out this way?
The Best Day of my life was the day I met you. How I wished we would Never Grow Up. Things would have been much simpler.
I remember the days where Sparks Fly between us, how I was your Superman and that we were Untouchable. I still remember the times where we would be A Place In This World, singing Our Song all day long. Never will I forget the night you left, the Last Kiss we shared was an Enchanted one. Oh how Innocent and Naive I was to believe that things would stay this way. No words can describe The Way I Loved You and now that you're gone, what's left are just Teardrops On My Guitar. I Should've Said No when you told me that we shouldn't be together anymore.
How could you be so Mean? I've never seen someone who is as cild as you. Ever since you left you have treated me as though I was Invisbile and I know You're Not Sorry for the things you have done. Oh how you have Changed. Now you're just a Picture to Burn after you've Haunted me for years.
I wish that I would have realised earlier that you are the best thing that's ever been Mine. I'd go Back To December anytime to change my own mind. If only This Was A Movie, you'd Come In With The Rain.
The Best Day of my life was the day I met you. How I wished we would Never Grow Up. Things would have been much simpler.
I remember the days where Sparks Fly between us, how I was your Superman and that we were Untouchable. I still remember the times where we would be A Place In This World, singing Our Song all day long. Never will I forget the night you left, the Last Kiss we shared was an Enchanted one. Oh how Innocent and Naive I was to believe that things would stay this way. No words can describe The Way I Loved You and now that you're gone, what's left are just Teardrops On My Guitar. I Should've Said No when you told me that we shouldn't be together anymore.
How could you be so Mean? I've never seen someone who is as cild as you. Ever since you left you have treated me as though I was Invisbile and I know You're Not Sorry for the things you have done. Oh how you have Changed. Now you're just a Picture to Burn after you've Haunted me for years.
I wish that I would have realised earlier that you are the best thing that's ever been Mine. I'd go Back To December anytime to change my own mind. If only This Was A Movie, you'd Come In With The Rain.
Friday, January 21, 2011
taylor oh taylor
what an impact taylor swift makes to my life and the lives around me. today 1 of my close friends gave me a call to rant her thoughts out. and it was all because of taylor swift. nt gonna put the details here since its kinda personal.
i was so bored at work the past few days that i decided to write a story using titles of taylor swift's songs. I finally managed to complete it today after much thought on trying how to use all her song titles but it was really hard.. she has so many songs! and some song titles are just not able to fit into the story. i send a copy to my friend working at citibank too and he said it was not bad. its quite an emo story and i guess its also part of my history.. shall post it up tomorrow. :)
i realise my blog is kinda personal now. since like no 1 knows about it. and im nt really using my online persona here so ppl cant really find me just by googling it.. but if ppl ever stumble upon my blog and knows me. then gd for you.. or mayb only a special few will get to know that I do actually have a blog which exists. :P till then. WORK TOMORROW! FML
BUT TGIF!! hair cut tmr... cant wait to get my hair in shape.. and my bod too.
i was so bored at work the past few days that i decided to write a story using titles of taylor swift's songs. I finally managed to complete it today after much thought on trying how to use all her song titles but it was really hard.. she has so many songs! and some song titles are just not able to fit into the story. i send a copy to my friend working at citibank too and he said it was not bad. its quite an emo story and i guess its also part of my history.. shall post it up tomorrow. :)
i realise my blog is kinda personal now. since like no 1 knows about it. and im nt really using my online persona here so ppl cant really find me just by googling it.. but if ppl ever stumble upon my blog and knows me. then gd for you.. or mayb only a special few will get to know that I do actually have a blog which exists. :P till then. WORK TOMORROW! FML
BUT TGIF!! hair cut tmr... cant wait to get my hair in shape.. and my bod too.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
REVIVAL
here i am reviving my blog after 1 whole year. time really flies. I was still 1 year from ORD when i really had this blog. and now im typing this with my pink ic in tucked safely in my wallet. :)
nth's really gone in my life right now. jus work, starcraft, friends. nth much has changed over the 2 years i guess. but im grateful for the friends that I have. nt many but having a small group of close and true friends are better then having many friends who will leave you in the lurch.
working at citibank isn't really worth while at all. other then the $9/hr pay that you get, you don't learn anything at all. there's minimal interaction between us colleagues and so what you do the entire day is just sitting in front of the computer, staring at the same god-dam screen and using the same program and call customers. a brainless job that's all. told myself i will never land myself such a job in the near future.
oh. just to say i'm in love with taylor swift. Her songs are really relatable and she has a sweet voice. Love her genre. cant wait for her concert too.
nth's really gone in my life right now. jus work, starcraft, friends. nth much has changed over the 2 years i guess. but im grateful for the friends that I have. nt many but having a small group of close and true friends are better then having many friends who will leave you in the lurch.
working at citibank isn't really worth while at all. other then the $9/hr pay that you get, you don't learn anything at all. there's minimal interaction between us colleagues and so what you do the entire day is just sitting in front of the computer, staring at the same god-dam screen and using the same program and call customers. a brainless job that's all. told myself i will never land myself such a job in the near future.
oh. just to say i'm in love with taylor swift. Her songs are really relatable and she has a sweet voice. Love her genre. cant wait for her concert too.
Friday, April 2, 2010
now and forever more
i went back to sch the other day to collect my letter frm mr azmi.. words jus cannot describe how good it felt to be back in school for that moment. being back as an old boy and seeing my juniors donning the acs uniform, the students playing ball on the astroturf.. it jus brings back lots of memories of the 6 years which I had spent there.. met mr bill chia and he has shifted to the dean's office.. promotion ehhh.. he's doing well which is expected.. he's really a good teacher and it is any student's blessing jus to have him to teach u.. yea.. i will never forget what he has taught me. it wasnt jus chem lessons.. but lessons about life, and things that you will take with you even after school where all the academics would have been forgotten.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
for some unknown reason.. im really dreading this book in.. camp isnt a nice place to be in.. the life there isnt gd.. ive been feeling nauseous lately.. even at home. i have no idea why but it really sucks.. i think i'll give u a call tonight.. haven spoken to u in a long while.. :) hopefully u'll have time to talk to this poor soul.. haiz..
Saturday, January 9, 2010
first post of 2010
the 9th of january 2010
1 YEAR SOLDIER
10 more months to go. but it feels like forever.
just a year ago before i enlisted.. i've always thought army was jus a place for young people like us to train, to keep fit and in some way or another, protect the nation. when i was still in school.. i've always thought army was a place with no stress, no exam pressure, no studying, no expectations to meet. well it only took 2 weeks for me to realise that my view of army was so wrong.. never did i expect how much shit we actually have to go through in the system. a system which is so flawed that everything is procedure.. a system where rank plays a big part.. a system where people do things just for the sake of doing it.. i wonder how we actually protect the nation by doing all these things.
my OC was talking to me the other day.. asking why i had nv attempted SOC once at all the entire 2009 while i was in 5 SIR. let me summarize our conversation.
point no. 1
what is he supposed to tell S3 that a COMMANDER has never attempted SOC once at all. so he gets into shit and is finding the person who has PERFECTLY VALID REASONS to 'talk to'.
point no. 2
he thinks that all commanders that cannot pass SOC should be treated like MEN. and until we pass SOC, we ARE MEN. period
point no. 3
he thinks that im trying to chao keng by nt doing any of his MANY SOC tests that he CONDUCTED. well.. thanks to my FRACTURED FINGER and my never ending COUGH/FLU that got me into so much discomfort and this 'talking session.'
point no. 4
as a commander, we are supposed to be fitter, to recover faster, and many other things which he said. i cant really remember.. but what he fails to realise is that WE ARE NSFs. and that one point alone. can answer to all his 'LOGIC' on how a COMMANDER should be.
if passing SOC and IPPT gold can ensure that Singapore wins a war.. then.. i have nothing to say.. i would do what he does and pump my MEN with SOC tests and IPPT until they have accomplished those targets.
1 YEAR SOLDIER
10 more months to go. but it feels like forever.
just a year ago before i enlisted.. i've always thought army was jus a place for young people like us to train, to keep fit and in some way or another, protect the nation. when i was still in school.. i've always thought army was a place with no stress, no exam pressure, no studying, no expectations to meet. well it only took 2 weeks for me to realise that my view of army was so wrong.. never did i expect how much shit we actually have to go through in the system. a system which is so flawed that everything is procedure.. a system where rank plays a big part.. a system where people do things just for the sake of doing it.. i wonder how we actually protect the nation by doing all these things.
my OC was talking to me the other day.. asking why i had nv attempted SOC once at all the entire 2009 while i was in 5 SIR. let me summarize our conversation.
point no. 1
what is he supposed to tell S3 that a COMMANDER has never attempted SOC once at all. so he gets into shit and is finding the person who has PERFECTLY VALID REASONS to 'talk to'.
point no. 2
he thinks that all commanders that cannot pass SOC should be treated like MEN. and until we pass SOC, we ARE MEN. period
point no. 3
he thinks that im trying to chao keng by nt doing any of his MANY SOC tests that he CONDUCTED. well.. thanks to my FRACTURED FINGER and my never ending COUGH/FLU that got me into so much discomfort and this 'talking session.'
point no. 4
as a commander, we are supposed to be fitter, to recover faster, and many other things which he said. i cant really remember.. but what he fails to realise is that WE ARE NSFs. and that one point alone. can answer to all his 'LOGIC' on how a COMMANDER should be.
if passing SOC and IPPT gold can ensure that Singapore wins a war.. then.. i have nothing to say.. i would do what he does and pump my MEN with SOC tests and IPPT until they have accomplished those targets.
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