now and forever more

i went back to sch the other day to collect my letter frm mr azmi.. words jus cannot describe how good it felt to be back in school for that moment. being back as an old boy and seeing my juniors donning the acs uniform, the students playing ball on the astroturf.. it jus brings back lots of memories of the 6 years which I had spent there.. met mr bill chia and he has shifted to the dean's office.. promotion ehhh.. he's doing well which is expected.. he's really a good teacher and it is any student's blessing jus to have him to teach u.. yea.. i will never forget what he has taught me. it wasnt jus chem lessons.. but lessons about life, and things that you will take with you even after school where all the academics would have been forgotten.

for some unknown reason.. im really dreading this book in.. camp isnt a nice place to be in.. the life there isnt gd.. ive been feeling nauseous lately.. even at home. i have no idea why but it really sucks.. i think i'll give u a call tonight.. haven spoken to u in a long while.. :) hopefully u'll have time to talk to this poor soul.. haiz..

first post of 2010

the 9th of january 2010
1 YEAR SOLDIER
10 more months to go. but it feels like forever.

just a year ago before i enlisted.. i've always thought army was jus a place for young people like us to train, to keep fit and in some way or another, protect the nation. when i was still in school.. i've always thought army was a place with no stress, no exam pressure, no studying, no expectations to meet. well it only took 2 weeks for me to realise that my view of army was so wrong.. never did i expect how much shit we actually have to go through in the system. a system which is so flawed that everything is procedure.. a system where rank plays a big part.. a system where people do things just for the sake of doing it.. i wonder how we actually protect the nation by doing all these things.

my OC was talking to me the other day.. asking why i had nv attempted SOC once at all the entire 2009 while i was in 5 SIR. let me summarize our conversation.

point no. 1
what is he supposed to tell S3 that a COMMANDER has never attempted SOC once at all. so he gets into shit and is finding the person who has PERFECTLY VALID REASONS to 'talk to'.

point no. 2
he thinks that all commanders that cannot pass SOC should be treated like MEN. and until we pass SOC, we ARE MEN. period

point no. 3
he thinks that im trying to chao keng by nt doing any of his MANY SOC tests that he CONDUCTED. well.. thanks to my FRACTURED FINGER and my never ending COUGH/FLU that got me into so much discomfort and this 'talking session.'

point no. 4
as a commander, we are supposed to be fitter, to recover faster, and many other things which he said. i cant really remember.. but what he fails to realise is that WE ARE NSFs. and that one point alone. can answer to all his 'LOGIC' on how a COMMANDER should be.

if passing SOC and IPPT gold can ensure that Singapore wins a war.. then.. i have nothing to say.. i would do what he does and pump my MEN with SOC tests and IPPT until they have accomplished those targets.

to my dearest celeste chen
this poem is written just for you
we started off as strangers in school
too bad u never thought i was cool

until one day we met at the bus stop
where we started chatting non-stop
i mustered some courage from inside
and got your number within my sight

finally we became an item
8 months and no longer
that night was the worst night of my life
as tears flowed freely from my eyes

off you go to a faraway land
while i'm still stuck in my homeland
there you met someone new
while im still yearning for you

soon enough the inevitable happened
you and him were no more together.
the tears now flowed from your eyes
and i was there for you nonetheless

now that you're back in the atmosphere
with drops of jupiter in your hair...

aha.. my nxt poem.. :)

38.9 degrees

lying on the bed feeling nauseous
thirty eight point nine degree celsius.
wrapping myself up in blankets
my head exploding like a rocket.

i whip out my trusty thermometer
as i began to stir.
beep beep beep it sounds
thirty eight point nine degree celsius.

got out of bed and to the MO
and all he had to say was OH
ATT C 3 days was all i got
time to go home thank God

aha.. my first attempt at a poem.. :) if any1 of u sees this pls comment.. and yes.. i really had a fever of 38.9 degrees.. dammit..

so much work.. so little time.. *sigh* my gd ol' cousin sheryl has got a korean boyfriend.. nice.. she sure has lots of fun in aus while we struggle to complete homework here.. next friday's a triple celebration by ex-classmates, mc, haadi and alvin.. im sure we'll have lots of fun considering the amount of time that they took to plan dis big birthday party.. i cant believe dat after gyming for 1 and a half years and i still haven gone to the gym with my friends..

i guess school life really sucks big time.. imagine yourself waking up at 6 and reaching home at 6.. this really sux.. half of your day spend in school.. not mentioning the tons of homework we have to do.. how i wish i could jus lay here and jus forget the world..*so happening im listening to chasing cars =)*

anyway.. napfa test is more or less over for me.. leaving only sit-ups and shuttle run which is like a 100% A for both.. as usual.. achieved a goal.. wat made me happy was dat i actually managed to run a 11min 12 sec for 2.4km.. yea i noe its nt dat gd or whateva but its still an improvement so im quite happy bout it..

time to go do econs IA and chem prac.. see more work to do again.. dammit..

ah... i think my blog is dying... zzz.. -.- lazy to update lehz.. nothing out of the norm happening.. but good friday is coming and having a class 4.17 outing.. hopefully it works out not like last time.. sianz.. 2mlo is thurs!! last day of the week.. nice..